Dissolve Your Self
There are 4 elements of ANTAHKARAN (internal system) as per Indian scriptures. These are MANN (mind/ consciousness), BUDDHI (intellect), AHAMKAAR (Ego) and AATMA (soul). Most of us have unanswered questions in our life, like – Who am I? or Why am I? I am not wise enough to answer these questions. However, my thoughts about AHAMKAAR (ego) are as follow. To understand the real meaning of word I rely more on Hindi language. Because in Hindi language, every word is made out of logic. AHAMKAAR is a combination of 2 words. AHAM means I or me and AAKAR means shape or size.
As we all know; soul has no shape, size or color. But as soon as soul enters into body, it starts taking shape. Shape may be in physical, psychological, emotional, social, professional, intellectual etc. forms. As soon as I came in this word I became human being. I got name from parents. I became Oswal by community and Jain by religion. As a professional I became CA and got titles at work and in society. These all are part of my identity. Like that all of us have different identity. In sense of spiritually; name, community, religion, education, position etc. belong to us but we are not limited to these titles and possessions. They create our shape, size, position, relationship etc. but the question- who am I? Still remains unresolved.
To find out our real identity we need to drop our attachment to all these titles. We need to dissolve so called SELF. Then probably we may know our real identity which may be shapeless, colorless, formless etc. or we may call it soul – a part of super soul (PARAMAATMA). If we dissolve all these selves then there is no difference between you and me or even a mosquito.
Living in this world, it may not be possible to dissolve our all selves but meditating on that may help us to become egoless or close to egoless.